Jesus?

 A friend asked me today how my job search was coming and I told her plainly "well not so great. I kind of feel like the little bird in that childrens book "Are you my mother?" But instead of mother it is Jesus. It's not that I don't know who Jesus is and am having a "faith crisis", but  I feel like I have fallen out of my nest and am in this season that I don't understand. I know Jesus is my light and the guide to my path so I am searching for His path for me in all of this. I have felt for the past semester like I have been going up to opportunities and asking "Jesus, is this it?" "Is this where I am supposed to be?" I am wandering around and looking for the place that He has me. I am trying to be open minded, diligent and faithful in looking for employment but I tell you what... I am getting a little discouraged. How many of these opportunities are going to look me in the face and say, "no, this is NOT where Jesus has you." I was praying in the shower today (if  you have never prayed in the shower... you should try! what else do you have to do in there!) and was pleading with the Lord to open any door. It is hard to wait sometimes and that is where I have found myself lately. Waiting. Waiting for something to work out. Some opportunity to "drop" as my dad says. So I am waiting, putting myself out there and praying for God to open a door. I know he hasn't left me, so i'll keep going around and asking "Jesus, is this it?" until I hear my yes. I am excited for that moment when Jesus lifts me out of my unknowing like the crane in the childrens' book and puts me back in my nest where I can see things at least a little more clearly. I am hoping for strength to be diligent as I go and search! My greatest comfort, strength and peace is that I know I am not looking FOR Jesus, but looking WITH Him. He is right beside me in the midst of all of my unknown and His knowing, steady way brings me peace. I hope I can look at this season like a time spent walking and enjoying time with the Lord as He leads me to my next opportunity, instead of a time that I grow in frustration that an opportunity has not arisen yet!

John 10:3
"The gatekeeper opens the gate for him, and the sheep listen to his voice. He calls his own sheep by name and leads them out."

Lord Jesus thank you for knowing me by name! Lord lead me out of confusion and discouragement and into you and your will. I am only a dumb sheep and I need your voice to guide me. Call me Lord. I need to hear your voice!